Gratitude #32

This weeks gratitude list is a bit different.

You see, there has really been one thing on my mind this week ... Nan Pat ... and its with tears in my eyes that i type this weeks gratitude post.

I don't know if you read about our day at Ashton Court or if you read a previous gratitude list when i included her but for those of you who didn't catch it, Nan Pat was Agent D's Grandmother who was terminally ill.

Unfortunately she passed away last weekend and its been a really sad time here.

Its never easy when a family member passes away but it hurts a little more with Nan Pat as she lived so far away. Agent D would have loved to have been able to see her more but with the distance that just wasn't possible.

I am grateful however that we got to see her this summer. It was a chance for us to say goodbye to a lovely lady.

I'm grateful that she is no longer in pain. I cant imagine the hell she was going though but bless her heart she still had her sense of humour and a great outlook on life.

I'm grateful that i even got the chance to meet her. She was such an important part of Agent D's life and i will forever be grateful that i got to have her in our life.

This weekend Agent D is down in England to pay his final respects and to be honest I'm a little heart broken that i couldn't go with him. I hate that i cant support Agent D through his grief and i would have liked to pay my respects too. However I'm glad that he has his family with him and that he is getting to say goodbye.

So I'll say my goodbye's from a distance. I'll light a candle on Tuesday night for her and I'll hold my memories of her close in my heart.

I hope that she is in a better place and may she rest in peace


  1. It's great that you got time to spend with her this Summer, but I can just imagine how you feel right now. My Gran died of cancer a few years ago and although it was a relief she wasn't it pain any more it was still hard! Hugs x Stevie

    1. I'm sorry about your Gran. I'm torn cause i know she was in alot of pain but its still really sad. Its her funeral tomorrow so I'm gonna light a candle with Agent M just for her and take care of Agent D when he comes back. Death is a part of life but its never easy to adjust to is it? xx

  2. A very poignant blog and I feel the sadness in it ( I had a tear in my eye).
    Sending you all love and hugs xxxx Mum

    1. Thanks Mum :) Agent M and i lit a candle for her and we had a wee chat about everything. Was a sad day :( xxx


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