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What a difference a year makes

I have been debating during the lock down getting back into my blog and where I want it to go in the future. There is a lot of work that has gone into Just a crafty mama. And a lot of memories too.

The day after my last post Рironically one about my mental health, my whole world came crashing down around me and I realised that the life I was living, for a significant part at least what a total lie. My partner betrayed me and that is unforgivable, so M and I continued on without him. This did mean we also had to give up our fur baby and go back to our default setting of just us two. Its been a year this week and we are in a much better place. This time last year I was crying myself to sleep almost every night. I have re-read diary entries that have brought me to tears at how much pain I was in and where my head was at back then. Its clich̩ to say so but I have grown so much since then and unfortunately hardened in ways that I pray are not irreparable.

So where do I stand? Should I just burn it all to the ground, hoping to see my very own Fawkes rising from the ashes, or do I just persevere, leaving all the mentions and memories intact? Honestly, I’m not sure what is best. But part of me is reluctant to delete it all. It happened. It was real and that was the life I was living. Just cause I’m on a completely different path doesn’t mean that those experiences and memories weren’t as valid now as they were then.

Perhaps I’ll leave it be as it is and just continue on with the blog on my new path. Only time will tell, I guess.

I do enjoy the format I had going. A happy mix of crafty tutorials, recipes, and family adventures and while the posts on my mental health might not have been so cheery, they were the real me which is what I strived for this blog to be. The real me and my memories, good and bad.

So please join me in hopefully reigniting my passion project and lets see what fun times we can come up with.