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Change is good

"How have you changed in the past 2 years"

Honestly, so much so that I’m no-longer recognisable to myself. 

The last few years have been an eye opener but more specifically the last 2 have been game changers.

Two years ago, I became an auntie. My beautiful wee niece was born, who I call sweet face, and she is the most amazing little person I’ve ever been blessed to meet. She is so smart and determined that she makes me smile and my stomach jump into my throat in equal measure. She has no fear and if she sets her mind to something, she will do it. She was walking long before she was meant to, and she is like a little sponge soaking up the world around her. That wee lass is gonna rule the world one day!

I was planning on adding to my family with D. We had been talking about it for a while and decided that we would try. It was an exciting time as him and M had been getting on better and we were all excited about having a baby in the house.

Then the fates decided to change the story on me, and that relationship ended in a rather painful way. Its OK though as its only now that I am out from under that relationship can I see just how bad it actually was. While at the time I felt like the life I was building had fallen apart, it was freeing me from a life that I wasn’t happy in. As much as I can pretend, I was, when I look back and read journal entries, I was really unhappy and that’s not a good way to live life.

Almost a year ago I decided it was time to get back onto the dating scene. Dating as a single parent is an actual riot BTW and there are some really scary people out there. I had all but given up when I got a message from this guy who looked like a bearded Viking. He was so sweet and easy to talk to, it was like I had known him for years. No topic was off limits and he made me laugh. He also seemed to love the way my weird mind worked. He would ask me how I got to a specific decision as the logic was flawed on his end, but when I explained he found it fascinating. My brain works different from most people and while others get frustrated by that, he enjoyed learning about me. Like the saying goes, there is more than one way to skin a cat – though why you would wanna is beyond me, but I digress.

We will have been together nine months in a few weeks and its been an amazing start to my next chapter. I have no idea what life will bring us as he is very much laid back and chill compared to my needing to plan but he’s helping me grow as a person and make sense of this new me. Personally, I can’t wait to spend the rest of my days beside him but then I like to think ahead.